Love is friendship set to music.

Sun, 31 May 2009 07:11:14 GMT

It's the holiday!!
yayness!
so a usual I must ensure that my holiday is gonna be a fruitful one.
There is a lot of things that needs to be done.
So I must plan my holiday carefully.
2 weeks only.
:(

Anyway ytd my family and I went to JB to celebrate all the May babies birthday.
All of us met up at my place and off we went to JB.
The jam was atrocious.
We were all famish after that.
So we went to eat our hearts out.
The food was AWESOME!
Then we went for some grocery shopping.
I had a great time with my family.
I love you cousins!

motivation.

Tue, 19 May 2009 05:07:16 GMT

hey.
I've been going through a lot of things in my life.
there is so many things to do.
i don't know how to juggle my time.
at this point, i just feel like giving up on everything.
i cant handle the stress.

maybe this is because i think too much.
but i have to think a lot.
i cant take all this matter very lightly.
one, it's because it's in my nature to think about things thoroughly.
that's just me.
two, i don't have a choice.
i have to use my brains to come up with solutions.

I'm trying to think of ways to motivate myself.
motivation.
i need to keep going.
i have a goal to achieve.
several goals in fact.

i was not like this last time.
i have change.
I'm not emotionally strong.
I'm not mentally strong.
what i am now is weak.
lazy and everything else.
i am more quieter.
I'm not suppose to be like that!
i am always the crazy and noisy one!
what have i become?
how do i get out of this?

Happy Birthday Lyn!! :)

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 19:01:43 GMT

hellooooo.
i had fun ytd with lyn, anna and raudha.
anyway, happy birthday to lyn!
hope you had a blast!
wish you all the best.
hope that we will always be how we are now.
and of coz the girls.
hehehehe.

loads of things had happened.
there are loads of things in my mind.
i am trying to do what i can.
school is starting soon.
there are some changes.
im not really sure what.
i forgot my password to log in to my school's account(VPN)
also i will have to go and configure my lappy.

all that we can do is to keep breathing.

toodles!

over and over again.

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 12:11:57 GMT

i never thought that things will turn out this way between us.
the way i look at it, you were really trying.
i dunno what i did wrong.
i don't understand why you do this to me over and over again.
sometimes i feel that you are taking advantage of the feelings that i have for you.
the way you are, makes me think that you are responsible and mature.
well i guess i was wrong.
i wonder if all the things that you told me was all a lie.
somehow i know that some parts of it is true.
but i just don't know which is which.
for once i thought you really have change and that you were really trying.
maybe it was something i did.
things was going on smoothly.
till now, im not sure what cause this to happen.
again.

bad business.

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 16:44:23 GMT

i got a message from my Store manager early in the morning today.
she sent a very long sms.
at that point of time, i was half asleep.
i was suppose to wake up and get ready for work.
in the sms, she said that she needs to cut down on labour.
this is bad.
for all the partners.
everybody wants to have a lot of shift but we can't have it.
this is due to the bad business.

im not business person.
but from how i look at it, business isn't that bad.
well i just hope that things will get back to the way it was.
i don't know if i should get another part-time job.
should i?

toodles.

updates!

Thu, 05 Feb 2009 11:04:41 GMT

i know i know.
its been a long time since i update this blog.
been busy.
and lazy to go online.
haha.

im having my school holidays now.
for 10 weeks?
kindda boring.
well lucky for me im working.
haha.

yesterday was my late dad's birthday.
went to visit his grave with my family yesterday.
we miss him alot.

at this point of time, there is so many things that i have in mind.
sometimes i think that i think too much that i question every move and step i take.
until it comes to a point that i don't really care anymore.
life is very mundane for me right now.
i don't have things to look forward to.
holidays can be boring too.
oh well.
that's life.

toodles!

blessing in disguise?

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 04:14:27 GMT

my O levels result is coming out later.
i really don't feel like talking about it.
i know that i will fail again.
just pray for me pls.

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

i hate this part - pussy cat doll

New year.

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 02:39:11 GMT

today is the second day the school reopens.
work is fine.
but tiring as usual.
i think i want to cut down to the number of days i work in a week.
maybe 3 days instead of 4-5 days.
it's just so tiring.
2 more weeks till i end my first year.
:)
then its the holidays again!
woo!
have to plan my holidays properly so that it would be a fruitful one.

oh btw, Happy new year!
i know it's a little late to wish happy new year.
haha.
i have some new year resolutions.
so far so good.
i follow my new year's resolutions.
:)
that's all for now.
toodles!

horoscopes.

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 19:26:52 GMT

its been quite sometimes since i read horoscopes.
im gonna post up some horoscopes that i came across.
not all though.
haha.

let's start with mine.
Leo.

You know you're the best, but it's always nice when others confirm the high opinion you have of yourself.
Larger-that-life Jupiter will give your ego a boost when it teams up with your ruler,the Sun, on 24 Jan. What others say about you is music yo your ears. And it's all true,of course!

P.S:i dun understand.

Taurus

You never like to let go of your possesions, be they material things or people you were fond of. But if you vex about an ex when the moon is full on Jan 11, you may not realise there's a new boy/girl on your horizon - and this one's got class.

Pisces

You can at times be a bit too timid, especially in the romance stakes, but someone you meet on Jan 23 - when love planet Venus aspects Uranus, the planet surprises - will inspire you to be more upfront about your feelings. Show some affection, and you'll get plenty back in return.

that's all for tonight.
i miss you daddy.

toodles.

zoukout,birthday and store outing. huhu. :)

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 18:10:11 GMT

well.
its about time i update my blog.
loads to update.
so let's start with Zoukout first.
i was working on that day.
i went with my colleagues after i finish work.
i met the rest of my colleagues there.
i went in first because i wanted to meet my cousin.
then i went to meet anna, raudha and her colleagues.
dance.dance.dance.
i had fun.
i went back to my cousin's place.
which then, sheila,haiqal and me were chit chatting till it was 9 plus in the morning.
then slept.
woke up at 1 plus in the afternoon.
movie marathon and bla bla bla.
here are some pictures of sheila and i.
:)

dancing!

me,haiqal and sheila.

there loads more but im just so lazy.
hahaha.

ok moving on to birthdays.
i wanna wish shameer, ida,asad, luqman and all other december babies birthday a happy belated birthday!:)
so cica and i went to Grand Peacock hotel at Chinatown after to work to make a surprise birthday party for our manager,Asad and partner luqman.
here are the pictures..

birthday boys!

on the bed!

cramp!

camwhore!

fun bunch of people! :)

now moving on to store outing.
lots of fun and laughter!
:)

asad.irene.me.fas.alex.

candid!

ladies!

colleagues!

colleagues!

fas and me!

again!

colleagues!

me!

oyah!

im too lazy to enlarge the pictures.
so yeah.
i really like my gift!
thanks alex!

i gotta go bed now.
tired.
nitey nites!
:)
toodles!

shopping and trip.

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 05:05:58 GMT

i went shopping last week with one of my colleague.
also i went to Mango yesterday during my break time at work.
how can i resist going there?
there were having sales!
50% off.
woo.
as usual there were a lot of people there.
almost all were ladies.
a few men whom accompany their girlfriend to shop.
some of the men look damn bored.
haha.
they deserve a Mega Mac.
lol.

hari raya haji just passed and i went to JB to make the Hari Raya Korban thingy.
i was soak in rain.
the trip there was ok for me because i was the only girl there (except for all my aunties)
most of the time i was with my cousins (guys).
and i smoke a lot.
i think that was why im having cough right now.
oh well.

New Year is coming and i already have a new year resolution in mind.
lose weight!!!
gosh.
i look like a freaking spider.
a fat one.
a very very fat one.
gosh.

holidays are coming!
yayness!
:)

toodles!

eat. chill. relax.

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 07:17:39 GMT

so yesterday,i went to have dinner and watch movie with my classmates after school.
i was suppose to go to store meeting but i didnt.
oyah is going to be so mad at me.
but it is really difficult to get everybody free to go out you know.
so yeah.
i sacrifice my store meeting for my classmates.
which was worth it.
i went to dinner and movie with isa,nor,shida,saleha and fir.
after the movie, saleha and fir went back home and the rest of us went to Starbucks to chill.
and guess what?
shida and nor spilled their drinks and the manager made a new one for us.
haha.
i really had fun with them yesterday.
everybody had their own reaction when watching KM31.
thinking back, it is funny.
lol.

talking,talking,talking, talk.

toilet!

lina. shida.

escalator.

naidni. go figure. lol.

toodles! :)

school and work. work and school.

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 01:51:43 GMT

hey.
its been a long time since i update.
its not like people care anyway.
oh well.
let's see.
my life right now only revolve around school and work.

i wish that i can have the life where i have the luxury of time to hang out and chill out with people.
i wish that i do not have to work.
i wish that i can go home after school everyday.
but i can't.

oh!
and i cant wait to go to wild wild wet this sunday.
hehehe.
hope that it will be a blast!
its been a long time since i went to KL.
so can somebody bring me to KL?
and i hope that my flu will go off soon.
ok.
i got to go back to school work right now.
toodles!
:)

The Killa!

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 12:00:03 GMT

hey there!
im done with my 'O' level maths.
paper 2 was a killa.
i got a feeling that i will have to retake again.
the paper .. i think i did quite ok.
i mean i can do the paper.
well moreover, i cant concentrate doing the paper cause i was sick.
cough, running nose and sore throat.
its been a long time since i fall sick.
i wont be taking any medication.
that is because i hate medication.
pills especially.

gotta wake up early tmr.
working.
i hope that my flu wont get worst because i really wanna work.
i hope that from now onwards, my manager will give me more days to work.
at least 4 days in a week.
i think i can cope better now because i do not have to worry so much about my O level maths because it is over.
woo.
i can now concentrate on Poly and work.
speaking of which, ytd was my store meeting.
and i got my pay raised.
does that sound right?
not sure.
haha.
even though by a few cents, it is still something.

after this im gonna have dinner.
then bath.
then watch tv.
then sleep.
haha.
need lots of rest.
working in the morning tmr and maybe going shopping.
maybe.
haha.
toodles!

busy busy busy.

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 03:05:33 GMT

i've been so busy.
there is so much to update.
however its either im lazy to update or to tired to update.
next week is a holiday!
this weekend im going on a holiday with my relatives!
yay!
coming back on monday.
the whole week after that would be work.
haha.

im so worried about my O level math.
this friday will be my paper one.
on the 30th would be paper 2.
im very sure that i will get F9.
haiz.
im prepared to retake again.
because if i get F9 this time round, i know i deserve it.
simply because i didnt study.
its stupid i know.
im going to retake maths again next year.

toodles!

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 07:52:27 GMT

hello!
there is so much for me to update!
firstly, last friday, i went out jalan raye with all my Starbuckcs partner.
it was fun.
hehe.
it was a tiring day for me cause after they came to my house, i had to get ready to go to my uncle house and stayed there till late.
hehe.
tiring sey.

im still not done with jalan raye. hehe.
im gonna have start my new job this tuesday.
Starbucks now is ust my side job.
or maybe i was thinking of quitting.
it so far for me.

cant wait for this coming deepavali!
my relatives and i are going to Batam to see azurah's new house there.
almost all of us are going to be there.
hehehe.
for now im tired and i've not been having enough rest,
so, im going to go and rest now.

toodles!

gaining those fats!

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 08:22:04 GMT

currently, im in class.
today's module is so freaking boring!
and today's faci is a relief faci.
geeky.
skinny.
smart.

lots of things happened and i dont really know where to start.
today is shahida's birthday!
so happy 17th birthday!
class is getting better day by day.
so yeah.
hehe.

im probably gonna find a new job because the current job im having is like wth.
i asked for like 4 times per week and all i get is 1 day per week.
wth.
so yeah.
im going to fnd for a new job nearby so that it would be easier for me.
hehehe.
i need to work.
find extra cash.
hee.

i miss my dad alot!
raye dont feel like raye without him.
haiz.

im tired from working ytd.
im so sleepy.
many people said that i was gaining weight.
:(

Selamat Hari Raya! :)

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 13:35:45 GMT

hey there!
tmr is Hari Raya!
so i wanna wish everyone who is celebrating it, Selamat Hari Raya!
hehe.
And also i would like t seek forgiveness to everyone for all my wrong doings towards them.

this year's raye will be very different for me.
My dad is no longer around.
i teaed up a lil bit just down hearing the Takbir.
brings back all the memories that i had with my dad.
also, my grandfather is here.
staying over for raye.
hehe.
so tmr all my relatives will be coming here.
hehehe.
ecxited.
its been a long time since i meet them.
so yeah.
looking forward to it.

toodles!

details in the fabric

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 14:26:31 GMT

i've not been going to school regularly.
i know.
i really want to go to polytechnic.
now i got it but im not appreciating it.
its like i do not have motivation to go to shool.
i've been having a bad time.
there is so many things going through my mind.
nobody can understand because i myself cant understand myself.
im just not happy.
im always angry.
always moody.
i wanna feel happy again.
like how i used to feel when i was a kid.
everytime i write an entry, i will tear up.
cause im writting down my feelings and thoughts that nobody can understand.
emo?
whatever.
i dont care what you say.

im trying so hard not to give up.
i've been thinking of ways to motivate myself to get out.
out to school.
mostly when i dont go to school, i will be at home.
i just wanna stay home.
i do not want to get out.
i dont know why.
im afraid to face the world.
i dont know why.
i wanna get out and feel happy again.
i need people to hangout and chill with.
but it seems that i dont have much people to do that with.
as a result, i will just stay home and feel sad.
im pathetic.
so fucking pathetic.
i just wanna get out of who i am now.
i just want to feel happy again.

i need someone to hug me.
kiss me on the forhead and tell me that everything will be fine.
i want my Dad around again.
i want him to kiss me on the forhead again.
hug me again.
accompany me to go shopping.
i feel so lonely.
so fucking lonely.

i dont know why i am feeling this way.
is it because my Dad passed away?
i mean i try not to think of it.
i always avoid thinking of him.
cause i dont wanna feel sad.
he was the only one that i can manje with.
now, i have no one.

some say that anything call me ok?
i will be there for you.
thats bullshit.
i only have one or two people i can depends on now.
i wanna have close frens again.
all my frens are fucking disappearing into their on life.
i know that people change.
but cant we all fucking make time for each other?
we are living in Singapore for goodness sake.
why is it so hard for us to get together??
im so fucking pissed.
like seriously.
i know you all are busy.
others are busy too.
but what do you have to lose just by trying to find time to chill and talk and go out and things like that.
i envy those who have circle of frens that's so close with one another.
why cant we do the same?
why?
why?
why????
damn!
i so pissed!!!!!
bye.

beautiful.

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 09:03:08 GMT

gotta listen to this people!
his voice is beautiful!
:)

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 14:49:56 GMT

i've been sneezing since just know.
and throat is getting a lil itchy.
however, i dont think i am falling sick.
i didnt went to school today.
overslept again. -_-
i dont know what is wrong with me.
i cant even here the alarm.
even the alarm for sahur.
wth.

anyway i practically slept and watch tv the whole day today.
after break fast, mum and i went out for awhile to get pineapples for KUIH TART!
woo!
and went to find for some other stuff.
then we went to have some ice cream.
haha.
then head home.

i cant wait for this Thursday!
cant wait to see the girls.
woo!
and currently im stuck with this song from Jason Mraz.
Bella Luna.
hehe.

You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful
How you swoon me like no other.

Bella Luna - Jason Mraz
: )

thinking and consideration.

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 02:33:47 GMT

nothing much improve in my current class.
i miss my last semester's class so much.
why do we have to change class?
some changes are good while some are not.
maybe i just have to wait for this class to bond a lil more.
i'll give it time yeah?

i've been eating a lot this few days.
i know it is fasting month.
however during break fast i will eat a little.
only after that i feel like a cookie monster finding for cookies.
and im putting on weight.
i don't see it on the weighing scale but i can see it in the mirror.
i looked through my photo albums ytd.
i used to be slim lor.
haha.
oh well.
what to do...
now there is already few people call me fat.
sad or what??
haha.
its ok.

i have a store meeting today at 7.30 pm and im soooo lazy to go.
i don't want to continue working there anymore.
i wanna change my job.
and i feel like i want to quit school cause i can't afford the school fees.
also its not confirm that i will get a certificate cause i have to pass my O level maths.
dammit.
i don't like maths.
i hate it.
its something that can't be changed.
urgh.
thinking of this makes me stress you know.
gtg.
toodles!

fart. full. fussy.

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 05:51:36 GMT

since yesterday in class i was controlling my fart.
haha.
then now, i need to do a big business by im lazy to move my big fat ass.
so yeah.
probably after i finish this entry i will head to the toilet.
hahaha.

so yesterday was a tiring day for me.
i went to school then after school my uncle fetch me from school to go to Geylang,
so we break fast at banquet at geylang.
and i didnt manage to finish my chicken rice.
cause i drank too much water.
lol.

after that we went to find for my raya shoes.
at last i bought one pair!
you know how fussy i can get.

P.S: im so happy that i get to meet you again after so long.
i miss you. :)
heeeeee. :D

im currently in love with this song! : )

temperamental.

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 13:59:00 GMT

today was a boring day for me.
woke up, got ready and went to school.
today ws my frist time meeting my new classmates.
so far it was monotonous.
well of coz.
what do you expect?
its just the second day.

you know how weak my maths is right?
and my facilitator for my maths module has a very high expectation of his students.
to me, it is very difficult for me to meet up to his standard.
i guess i will just have to work my ass out.

my mum was frying kway teow goreng just now.
so while waiting for time to break fast, i took a short nap.
i dunno why i was so shag today.
its like out of a sudden you know.
then when i woke up, i walked to the kitchen and i saw my mum add taugeh in the kway teow goreng.
i suddenly went so pissed.
because i don't like taugeh.
but i didnt shout or whatever.
my mood just immediately swing to angry and pissed mood.
moreover i just woke up.
its like combo!
dang!
do you understand what on earth i am blabbering?
if u dun its ok.
i didnt have mood to break fast just now.
and then when i was at the mrt station, i saw a men that looks like my late dad.
carrying NTUC plastic bags.
just like how he and i used to go grocery shopping.
i just looked at that men.
i miss him so much.
ok.
i dont wanna talk about it.

i gtg for now.
i wanna rest and watch Ugly Betty.
hehehehe.
toodles!

credits!

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 02:25:47 GMT

hey!
this is my new blog.
credits to lyn for doing the skin and everything.
thank you very much bebeh!
i love ya!
anyway, anna and lyn, we should hang out at the coffeeshop again.
heheh.
then ask the rest of the girls to join us.
hehe.

happy fasting to all the muslim out there!
:)

today's problem for maths module is difficult.
damn.
toodles!